Yeah.. My life is so happy!!!

actually I lied... my life is not really happy now!

ok, where to start? you guys probably wondering why didn't I update my blog for a long long time... all I can say is " sorry... too many things happened during this month! I don't even get to sit down and relax!!! how can I find the time to update my blog?"

well, right now... I am sitting down in the living room of my aunt's house... and updating my blog... why am I in my aunt's house? because I got kicked out from my dad's house.. that's why!!! I am living with my cousin, my aunt, Thomas and Sandy... by the way... Thomas and Sandy are my bro and sis...

Do not ask me why I got kick out... because I won't tell you guys... I only told one person.. and that's it... all I can say is my dad got really mad at me in a big arguement... and tried to kill me by struggling me, and I hit him back...then I moved out!!!

I am fine now... but I am really really tired of everything...like my dad and my personal stuff...
sorry that I have a secret hiding from you guys... but trust me... if I tell you, you can't help me at all... it will just make you guys worry about me or feel sad... so, why bother? :)

I am still working at the theatre... and trying to start the battle between Tyler and me for the salary manager position. I don't know why I want that position... maybe becasue I don't want Tyler get promote and be my boss :P hahaha I feel so mean to him... lol
Also, I am getting a second job soon at General Hospital... this time... I am not a cook assistance or clerk..I am gonna be nurse assistance... making 12 dollars per hour to support Thomas and Sandy.

some of you guys might think I am still like a little girl.. really immature... but actually I already been through a lot, much more than you guys... I am not saying I am great or I am a hero... got kicked out, working two jobs to support my bro and sis. No, I am not... I am not a superwoman...
I am getting tired, really tired.. I don't know how long can I hold on... I don't know can I carry on... all I know is... I need to protect my bro and sis... until someone else come and take my place, then I finally can take a deep breath and rest.
I started to protect them since I was 11... and now I am 19... eight years had been past, a really long eight years... *sigh*... oh well.....a good rest would be nice! hehehe :)

sorry... I write this not to prove I am tough or make you guys feel sad.. just because I treat you guys as my good best friends... and I just want to share my feeling with you.

anyways... enough with the sad Teresa T_T
let's go back to the happy Teresa :P

well well well, I am trying to get a second job.. just in case if I don't get the salary manager job... and Tyler does... so I can quit immediately!!! I am not being mean, I just can't stand him >_<
also... I am living at my aunt's living room now... sleeping on the carpet... fun fun fun... I never realize my old bed actually really soft and comfortable... hahaha...

basically, I am more happy than before.. why??? because I don't need to deal with my dad anymore.. for people who don't know my dad... all I can say is... meh... he is too immature, he doesn't know how to be a dad.

hm... maybe I need to see my family I doctor... I need to do a check up... because I always feel dizzy and weak... always sleepy and look pale.... I guess becasue lost too much blood... :P

oh did I tell you guys what happen when I go to donate blood on beginning of Sept?
well I went to donate blood at 12:30 after my class... I was fine that time... and I was talking to the hot guy sit next to me too... he is chinese and he is sooooooooo freaking tall... omg... my neck was so hurt after talking to him... hm... I forgot his name, but I will see him next time when I go donate blood since we book the appointment in the same date and same time...
then I walked back to HUB... and saw my friend was waitting for the same bus with me... then I started to chat... my bus came... then I got on and stand next to her... for some reason.... I started to feel really dizzy... and I can't hear anything... and my eye... can only see black and white... I still remember, I told my friend " I feel really dizzy!!!" then I don't know what happen... when I woke up... my friend and lots of people were looking at me... a guy offered me his sit... then I sit down... and still lots of people still looking at me... I was like " WHAT THE???"
and my friend told me I was fainted... then I said... " maybe because I didn't eat anything before and after donated blood!!" then the guy who offered me the sit and some dude started to yell at me.... T_T
I got off the bus with my friend... went to his house... and feed me... it was so tasty man... so yummy.. then we just started to chat... and then I went home. hahaha

this blog is getting longer and longer... I will continue update it regularly... so stop yelling at me :P
and don't worry... I am fine...and I will keep fighting...
I believe my life is not that crappy...just like a drama, at least I am still alive... which means I still have a chance to change my fate... and my life...

wish me luck!!! cheer for PuiYin kk?
thanks thanks
see ya later =]